Let’s get real.

What the hell is going on in my life?

What the hell am I doing with my life?

Am I moving???

Are we even going to actually have a wedding?

What am I procrastinating on in order to write this blog? (because it's obviously something)

What fears and silly habits have I grown out of?

What am I grateful for and creating for the future?

All this and more.. in my no-nonsense blog update about my personal life written for...anyone that gives a shit. Mainly, just a therapeutic practice for me...while procrastinating. Let's go ahead and dive right into the nitty gritty.

What the hell is going on in my life?

Recently I've gone from unemployed to over-employed as soon as restaurants were allowed to reopen outdoors in LA. John and I just went on a trip to Florida and when we got back, I got a nasty cold-don't worry, I got tested...negative for covid. I'm feeling better & just working a lot-getting organized at home and settling into some healthier habits. Enjoying life and spending time with loved ones but also learning how to set boundaries and prioritize my passions and goals.

What the hell am I doing with my life?

Well, still whatever the fuck I want.

Am I moving???

Yes. In June. With my husband- for his work. It's not anywhere in California and it's all very bittersweet but we're both ready for the change. We have both met a lot of wonderful people while we've been out here on the west coast, so now we just have to convince them to come visit us at our next place!

Are we even going to actually have a wedding?

I ask myself this almost daily. And most days I still want a wedding & I know John wants one, so YES. I'll start planning when we get settled in our next location!

What am I procrastinating on in order to write this blog? (because it's obviously something)

Bartending course. I purchased an online bartending certificate course to learn all that jazz and whatnot. Obviously, I'm not that interested in all that but eventually I'll force myself to get started on it because it would be a wise investment for our next location.

What fears and silly habits have I grown out of?

I've given up giving a shit what people think I've given up perfectionism. I've given up putting others' needs in front of my own. I've stopped suppressing thoughts and emotions. I've let go of the fear of speaking my mind and sharing my truth. I've forgotten about the constructs of societal "truths" and "realities." I've stopped using other people's problems as an excuse to not look at mine. I've drank and smoke enough to warrant a break and established a new appreciation for "moderation." I've disengaged with people that choose not to see possibilities. I see boundaries as a basic necessity for living now and I used to think it was a selfish way of being. I am not afraid of the future because it is as I create it to be.

What am I grateful for and creating for the future?

I am so grateful for all of the wonderful people in my life. I am blessed with an amazing husband-he's the best teammate I could ever imagine. I have the most loving friends and family-including our dogs! I've got a niece on the way!!! I'm creating a joyful life filled with health and happiness and I have a few major creative endeavors I'm going to jump into this year including my Sustainable Blonde reviews, High Heels & Ponytails workbook & Naked Dolls bikinis & lingerie! I'm really looking forward to meeting more talented people to collaborate with & I've some film & stage projects that are going to be divine as well!

I have to say that I'm very pleased with this year so far and I'm so grateful for all the changes that have been occurring in my life! Thank you God and all of my loved ones for all the support!!! Hope you are all staying healthy and happy too!!! Let's chat soon!!! xoxoxo

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